Domo. :D

recently really tired.

everyday having difficulty waking up. @_@

and its not as if im not sleeping enough.

i seem to be sleeping. i guess.

but doesnt seem to help at all.

im in a constant state of fatigue.

hell knows why.

and this week, with canvassing,

everything is packed together,

1108,1102, fow canvassing.

feel like my attention is split so many times,

i cant see it anymore...

*hello where are youuu?*

but even with this stress period,

occasional bouts of happy happy everyday. :D

nice dinner todayyy. :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

fri : got er. distracted from mugging. but oh well. not as if i was in the mood to mug.

THEN, just as i was about to leave... *rain pours*

=_='''

then had to wait and wait.

trying to pray the rain stops soon.

then it poured harder. ):

so. i decided to change route home.

took to clementi,

then. the train crawl like turtle. =_='''

but thank god for that,

cause it gave me the opportunity to meet j.

if not i normally also wun go by that route.

things like this are amazing.

makes you think of the things you have done,

whether every choice and option you make

affects your path now.

if i had taken this route instead of that.

if i had done this instead of that.

if i had been less rash.

if i had given myself more time to think.

what would have happened then?

and how would it affect other people

and my experience with them?

and,............she gave me

ICEEEEEEEEEE CREAMMMMMMMMMMUUUUUUUUUUUU!~~~

chocolate ice cream.

super high high high on fri. XD

sat : exam + bowling.

exam - CUI.

bowling - also CUI.

realised after playing bowling for so long...

that my method of playing has never been right.

=_='''

no wonder i always end up hurting my wrist

whenever i play bowling.

oh well. im not cut out for bowling.

but me and jiejie and lulu 3 kee siao ppl

laughed like siao.

at all our longkaos,

at the random and occasional jingmei/lulu's strike and spare.

then we will *WOOOOTTTSSS!*

and then everyone else will o.o

cause our score like CUI we still so self high.

ROFLMAO.

then eat macaron!!!!!!!!!!!~~~

wheeeeee. :3

nice food.

sun : the treasure hunt thingy.

didnt win anything but it was pretty fun.

tired also.

whole weekend never do anything.

tmr sure die. ):

then check 1231 result.

T.T

no mood do anything.

im landing myself in a vicious cycle. ):

and eating ice cream at 11pm at night.

emo eating. ):

i got no common sense. =_='''

i get it. ):

sian. go sleep.

tmr then settle. sigh..T.T

btw, just now sth uber funny happened at my granparent's house.
grandad gave my bro some food. placed it on his palm.
it looks sorta olive greenish kinda cube like thingy...
grandpa : chocolate. eat.(in hokkien)
bro, me and cousin. *stares intently*
(thinking : CHOCOLATE??!)
*stares somemore*
suddenly my cousin went : HOMG STOCK CUBE!
and i simultaneously went : LUO HAN GUO CUBE!
*points in horror*
then the conclusion is -> it was an ikan bilis stock cube.
=_='''
chocolate... =_='''
so salty can. if my bro ate it. ROFL.

cheesy pickup lines :

(some of them are plain ROFLMAO. lol )

Do you have a map? I just keep on getting lost in your eyes.

Hello, I'm a thief, and I'm here to steal your heart.

If I could rearrange the alphabet, I would put U and I together.

(HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i tink i will die laughing first.oops.super cheesy.)

Is there an airport nearby or is that just my heart taking off?

Wow. (apparently... this IS a pickup line. lol. and 30 of 100 is successful. 30%.heh.)

Your legs must be tired because you've been running through my mind all night.

Was your father a thief? 'Cause someone stole the stars from the sky and put them in your eyes.

Hello. Cupid called. He says to tell you that he needs my heart back.

(this one is cute. haha.)

If stars would fall everytime I would think of you, the sky would soon be empty.

Go up to the person and ask for their hand. Draw a line across it and explain that its a really big river, and the bunny on this side (doesn't matter) really needs to get to the other side. Ask how he does it. Give cute little answers as to why the bunny can't cross the river (i.e., ...bunny jump in river, bunny goes *glubglubglub*.) When the person finally asks how the bunny is supposed to get across, give them the cute puppy eyes and say "I don't know, I just wanted to hold your hand."

(I KNOW THIS ONE! yingqi played on me before.haha.)

Can I take your picture? (Why?) Because I want Santa to know exactly what I want for Christmas.

Please do not be alarmed if a big man wearing a red suit picks you up and throws you into a bag. (Why?) Because I asked for you for Christmas.

If I could reach out and hold a star for everytime you've made me smile, I'd hold the sky in the palm of my hand.

Can you pull this heart-shaped arrow out of my ass? A damn little kid with wings shot me.

Disclaimer : using these does not ensure that u will succeed with the date you want, your crush, someone you like,and please do not try cause some of this are just plain FUNNY.roflmao. so the person is highly likely to just laugh AT you and not WITH you. haha.

saw today on the bus home an ad:

"Long journeys? No worries! Get a Heaven and Earth Ice Lemon Tea!"

ROFLMAO. firstly the ad has got like NO LINK.

what does travelling on the bus got to do with ice lemon tea?! =.=

besides. its ironic cause on the bus there is this

"no food and drinks allowed" sign. ironic. hahahaha.

i miss lit.

miss learning pride and prejudice, laughing to death interpreting

the book, seeing how Elizabeth's mum embarrass herself to death

without knowing it. ROFL.

miss spamming mr wee with consultations,

miss having fun with dr S during consultations.

YESH its a consultation but its funny. :D

miss discussing P n P with so many different people,

talking like all the characters in the book were alive.

miss reading and analyzing othello,

cursing at iago,

cursing at how stupid othello is,

cursing at how blind everyone in the play is.

but still having fun. :3

suddenly feel like isolating myself from the rest of the world.

an incomprehensible sense of irritation that makes me

tempted to hide somewhere from everyone and

never come out.

i wished it didnt feel so much like the last time.

didnt feel so familiar,

didnt make me feel even more scared.

didnt make me feel so helpless,

cause i cant manage my emotions properly.

wished that the movie of memories,

can stop repeating whenever i see certain things,

certain places,

so i can stop being reminded of all this,

so i can move on,

and stop hurting someone else in the process.

i am such an idiot. RAWR.

nodame is a disappointing movie. ):

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

im disappointed with the movie director.

he MANUALLY split the movie into 2 parts.

LIKE HOMG. ):

i expected the ending to be smoother. ):

oh well. i guess i was really too excited to be

watching nodameee. ):

but today generally happy happy. (:

The lab4 demo is finally over.

Never felt so disgusted with a particular person ever before.

straining the limits of my temper.

really trying hard not to blast the the person.

exhausted doing this lab.

lab5 has been released.

*gulp*

i know i am being unfair.

that maybe i didnt make the most optimal decision

at that time and circumstance.

but i made my decision.

and im trying my best to keep up with my decision.

trying really hard.

but at times like this,

i really feel angry at myself.

for not handling things better,

for not being able to handle myself better.

for feeling this way everytime

i get reminded.

for feeling scared.

for feeling this overwhelming sense of deja vu.

that seems familiar yet foreign.

and not being able to stop myself from crying.

i tink its the stress from sch.

everything has been getting to me.

horrible week. coding and coding non-stop.

even dreams are flooded with coding.

this is insane.

I AM GOING INSANE.

the last time i slept so late was LAB 5.

and TECHNICALLY.

this is just lab 4.

and im lagging behind in tutorials again.

this cycle will never end.

filtering messages just now.

and I saw some older messages that i happened to keep.

and suddenly feel a sense of deja vu at the busstop.

then i suddenly feel the urge to cry.

felt the fear i felt 2 years ago surface again.

then after a while. im ok again. =.=

i tink i have a commitment phobia.

RAWR.

i shall try to keep myself sane till friday.

COME COME COME FRIDAYYYYY.